Scapegoats and people

Most people are looking for scapegoats.
They start pogroms on people of a different identifiable group and kill them all,
They pick some one to yell at,
They choose someone to blame and takl behind their back.
People who batter their spouses do this too. They pick on that perhaps because they think they can. They come home and yell at them and beat them everyday and are nice to the world.
I've learned and read so much about men doing this to women. And I have had the urge to hit women, but not by batterring. It was because they were batterring me verbally.
Blaming me for their problems, some which I can help them with, but some which I have no control over and are none of their bsuiness. My Girlfriend does this, and I notice other people at work will do this, especially over the phone.
Some people, choose to speak nicely to me and have a nice relaxing conversation and talk aboyt someone else they don't like and laugh about the stress in their day. Others throw their shit on me.
I can take a certain amount, but of course I get angry.
And when dealing with someone who can only talk but not fight, it really seems useless to continue talking in a street environment. With words, you are equal and you have to waste air yelling as they try to yell over you. The Urge to shut down their verbbal attack is there. But this is illegal and also, some of these people are people you care about.
Why do they think they can do this?
Because nobody has beaten them.
They are predators in their own verbal Jungle. In their world, actual violence is not an option so they focus on verbal and psychological violence.
If these people used actual violence they would be serial killers, rioters, people who start pogroms, etc.
WHy do they do this?
Why does my girlfriend do this?
She knows or thinks I won't hit her. So she knows she can get away with this without consequence. But it does not get her what she wants. It only makes me angry and not want to be around her. Before she was carrying my child, I truly wanted to hit her. In fact it was not so much a question of wanting to. It was a question of constantly holding myself back, A violent internal struggle. I feel the strain on my organs on the ache in my muscles from it. My fist , my body, trying to defend itself from this assault of psychological violence. But I don't allow my body to protect itself and take this instead.
Some men do this, but recently I have had much more of this experience with women. and the men that do it are like women in my mind.
The only way to take this is to revert to a turn the other cheek Jesus like Buddha like method, which is hardly in my nature. or not recently anyway. Or is it?
This is why I took it easy on that punck I sparred with. This is why I took it easy at the boxing place instead of doing my thing. This is why I am not really a fighter. But it is wearing on me. I am being forced by my surroundings to become more assholish, more of a predator that eats prey. How can you think about prey if you are eating it.
But I guess that is not really my situation,
I am prey.
I am prey that can fight but I won't destroy this predators whose teeth cannot pierce my skin but still hurt and are still trying to harm me, and for what? Sustenance?
They are not mosquitoes drinking blood. They are bees stinging and yet they have no hive to defend, or indeed we are a part of the same hive.
The Human mind is indeed sad when it is like this. This leads to nothing but harm.
Harm Harm.
This is not the Buddha mind. They are focusing on illusions evenI cannot see.
There is not even a clear illusion of a goal.
They are drugged on their ignorance.
Insane and deranged on their uncomfortable situation. Instead of trying to get me to do something for them, they yell at me for not doing something which they had not asked for. Or they had nasked for but I hadn't heard them.
Angry over miscommunication? Fix the problem. The world tries to move forqard but they just want to argue about a past mistake or occurrence or situation which is gone.
Gone like that.
And the present can easily be exactly what they want, But the focus on that uncomfortable situation in the past.
Hell.
That is what that is. Hell in the midst of a possible present of Paradise.
focuson hell and why?
So strange.
And I am angered by it. I guess I just need to prectice and breathe this away, this foolishness.
Breathe their illusion out of my eyes. see through it. It is their evil nature to continue to spit it out like venom and fire from a demon serpent. They are stuck in that form because they are burning and posoning themselves on their own poisonus flames. I can do nothing for them. I must simply become immune to the poison.
What foolishness.
This is the world we live in.
And I am only human.
How can I not become angry.
I must beathe it away.