A day at the Amusement park

Today Grace, Shao Bao, and I had a day at Canobie Lake thanks to Liberty Mutual.
Of course Shao Bao is eleven months old so he was limited to certain rides. We did the Caurousel (that kind of freaked him out, and also made Grace dizzy) and we also did the Ferris Wheel.
He freaked out a little on the Ferris Wheel but I wasn't sure whether it was because of height or just because he coincidentally felt likescreaming. He was tied to me in one of those baby carriers so there wasn't any danher or anything like that.
But the experience reminded of a story my Uncle Francis told me. (Just for clarification this is on my Peters side, that is my European American side)
Uncle Francis:
"So me and Tommy (My little brother) went on the Ferris Wheel with my Father when I was little. I remember that for whatever reason, we had stopped and Tommy started flipping out and screaming and trying to get out. So I was trying to hold his hand and calm him down when my dad just held him straight and Boom! punched and knocked him out right there. Of course I understood later... well it had to be done, but since I'd never been exposed to something like that it scared me."

Anyway, my Uncle's and Aunt's have disagreements over how my Grandfather ran his family but it is clear that he was able to do what was necessarry when it was necessary. I consider myself much more cuddly and of course sheltered than my grandfather and of course not as mentally strong. For instance I don't like rides. I've been on tall Roller Coasters at Six Flags just because but even the little rides designed for 6 year old girls at Canobie Lake still make me uneasy.

I also tried the "easy" rock climbing station at Grace's request and found that after a certain height I didn't want to continue.
These are rides with safety harnesses etc. so there is minimal danger, it's really in my mind.


Of course there ae other things I do like stilt wakling while doing lion dance that is actually quite dangerous. It is easy to lose balance and fall by tripping or fatigue or sometone pushing you over etc. There are no safety harnesses. In fact I have fallen going up stairs on stilts, (again because I freaked out.)
In fact of the kids I learned stilts with I was the most afraid. But for some reason I am now often the one of the only ones left doing lion dance on stilts even though my young students are the type that aren't afraid of large roller coasters.
I thought about this while I was on the Ferris Wheel or children's ride that makes me uneasy. But especially after the rock climbing. In fact if the hobby were cheaper, I would like to try rock climbing everyday, perhaps because I am afraid of it, and because of the workout aspect of it.
Similarly, even though it took me longer to do stilts, I started workng on it everyday until I got it when I was a teenager. It might also be because my Sifu encouraged me to perform.

This is probably another reason why I enjoy practicing Kung Fu. It is precisely because I don't go around punching people in the nose.

My Grandfather was a man that worked on skyscraper I beams, fought in World War II, and in terms of climbing..... well he shimmied up the side of a hospital where Uncle Francis(his son) was staying because he had had part of his foot blown off in Vietnam. Uncle Francis wasn't supposed to leave the Hospital. So Father and son went out the window, went for a night out on the town and then got back in through he window.

I wouldn't be able to do that. Just like I couldn't finish an easy "rock climbing" station at an amusement park, or finish sevral books that I have tried to write.
Well I guess there are some thing sthat I have been able to accomplish but writing this is showing me that it might be time that I start becoming more a man of action in the aspects of my life where I haven't been able to.
Like maybe I should start practicing Kung Fu more like I thought I would since I don't have a job, or maybe I should spend more time writing. Write a book maybe. Get it published. That would be nice. I do over think things way too much when I should do more. This has probably helped me for the earlier years of my life and kept me out of gangs and things like that, but now that I am older, I should have more follow through with me thoughts, hopes, dreams of action. Especially since these hopes of action are becoming increasingly more safe and easy to accomplish if I just started doing them.